167pp., paperback, Johannesburg, 2019

Kelly-Eve Koopman writes about her attempts to forget her mentally ill and emotionally abusive father who disappeared. She also writes about coming to terms with herself as a "brown, newly privileged 'elder millennial', caught between middle-class aspirations and social justice ideals." from the back cover

"A brilliant watcher and gifted wordsmith, Because I Couldn't Kill You is brave, spiritual and sexy. An insight into one of Kaaps's sharpest minds." Chase Rhys, author of Kinnes

Kelly-Eve Koopman is co-creator with Sarah Summers of Coloured Mentality, a web series debating what it means to be coloured.

BECAUSE I COULDN'T KILL YOU, a memoir

: Koopman (K-E.)

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