216pp., b/w & colour illus., paperback, Cape Town, 2014
A memoir by Ruth Carneson, daughter of Fred and Sarah Carneson, prominent South African Communist Party activists in the 1950s and 1960s. When she was a child her parents were in and out of prison. When she was fourteen the family were forced into exile in London while Fred Carneson remained in prison in Pretoria. Carneson writes about her childhood in Cape Town, her fear of the security police, her life in London, her struggles with mental illness, her experiences with LSD, art school, motherhood and political activism, her return to South Africa in 1991, and the ten years she spent living and working on Robben Island. She moved back to Cape Town in 2007 and has a studio in Muizenberg.